March 16, 2010 at 6:34pm

BOYS ;
Ok, so there was a little ditty I forgot to tell you about Rosco. There was this girl that he had sex with a long time ago, and she got pregnant. He wasn't the only potential Dad but.

our conversation ;

Him- We need to talk.
Me- Ok.
Him- I just got back from the hospital. Meesha's baby is mine....
Me- Oh shit.
Him- Yeah... I don't know what I'm going to do....
Me- Are you gonna break up with me?
Me, way later. - Answer me. Are you gonna dump me?
Him- I don't know what Imma do.
Me- Ok..
Him- Look I wasn't lien when I said I loved you but now I got a kid and its going to be my life now..
Me- I love you too, I was gonna tell you this weekened.

I don't feel like writing out the rest, ha.
Basically, he confused the crap outta me.
He said he would do anything to stay with me, then he said we both know that I'm not ready for this.
Then he just stopped answering, and I haven't talked to him since thenn.

So yeah. I really do love him though, and I don't understand.
We both knew that this baby was on the way, and that there was a good chance it was his, and he didn't act like it was going to be a big deal. I don't even know what to do with myself. I feel helplessss.

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March 15, 2010 at 7:42pm
Subject: i don't think i'll ever forget you. (:

BOYS ;
It will soon be a month with me and Rosco.
Which is CRAZY, the last time I dated someone for more than a couple weeks was Kaleb Andy, and I thought about dumping him every single day. I loved that kid, but it was only as a friend. I still love him, he's the sweetest kid ever. But yeah. So that month took foreverrrr and two days, but this month has flown by. and I'm scared, because Rosco is still saying he loves me, and I think I love him too. But I'm scared, that when I say it, I'll get hurt. That's happened 9736734963857386 times before, so.

DRAMA ;
Still not talking to Samm. I know it was kind of a stuupid thing to get mad over because a lot of people who mean a tonnn to me smoke week, but she LIED about it. Who does that.
And really, I have had enough of Samm's crap.

EXAMPLE ;
Ok, last week was a bad week for me. Because I have this problem with acting like I don't care about people, when they really mean the world to me. So I refuse to start conversations with Rosco. I don't wanna seem obsessive. So when he didn't text me at all for two days, I was stuck.
Samm kept telling me he was definitely not going to break up with me blah blah blah.
And he finally started talking to me and he said he missed me.
And i said you don't act like it and he said
"I know baby and I'm sorry but I really do miss you."
etccc.
And I told Samm and she was like "So you're really gonna believe that?"
ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!
She was the one CONVINCING me not to dump him,
and now she is questioning me.

I was like ohmygravy.

And not only that,
but she has this habit of talking crap about me.

EXAMPLE ;
Last summer, she liked Derek.
I did not know this.
I dated Derek.
She said to Maddie, "I don't know why guys even like Brooke, I don't think she's that pretty."
Which was when we were still friends, so I can't even imagine what she said when we weren't.
I love Maddie, because when Samm said that, She said, "if i was a guy, I'd fuck brooke" (:

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March 14, 2010 at 1:07pm

BOYS ;
3 weeks with Rosco. (:

DRAMA ;
Um Friday night, Samm told me she was talking to Nic about this girl that Rosco had messages from in his phone. She was really getting high with him. And then she tried to take me and Maddie's money and leave. And on top of that, she tried to tell us she wasn't high. You could tell she was high from a mile away.

BOYS/DRAMA ;
THEN, she started telling Rosco about it and he said that I was acting like a little kid.

I said, "You don't know half of the shit Samm puts me through, ok? And if you are so close with her then you can just date her."
And he said somethin bout no, he don't wanna lose me.
So I said, Then stay outta me and Samm's shit.
And he did.

I was like really? If she messes it up with me and him I will never ever talk to her again.

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March 13, 2010 at 2:25pm
Mood: Annoyed.
Subject: wow.

I've gone away, seen better times in yesterday.
So, have you seen the Eclipse movie trailer yet? Opinions?:	Yeah, I have..and I loved it.
What is your number one distraction from homework/work?:	Facebook, AIM, anything pretty much.
Do you have any special plans for march break? If so, what?:	I don't have March break.
When was the last time you baked something? Did it turn out good?:	A long time ago and yes.
Have you ever burned yourself from touching freshly straightened hair?:	Yeah.
Do you have Windows 7? If so, do you like it? If not, do you want it?:	No, I don't.
As a kid, did you ever have a secret handshake of somesort.:	Yeah.
2(n - 5) = 10(n + 15) Can you do that? :	Yes.
Do you think some of the stuff we're taught in school is useless?:	Yep.
Can you speak more then one language fluently? What languages?:	No.
Does it bother you when people make grammer/spelling mistakes?:	Yes.
When your in your room, do you prefer the door open or closed?:	Closed.
Why do we put the clocks one hour forward or one hour back?:	I have no idea.
What song has really inspirational lyrics? Do they mean anything to you?:	A lot of songs do.
Does it bother you when people don't text back right away?:	Yes.
How do you prepare/study for a test? :	I just don't.
Do you often use the dictionary, or would you rather Google it?:	Google it.
What would the world do without Google? :	I don't know.
You are granted three wishes you can only use on yourself. What are they?:	I'm not sure.
What is your favourite flavour of gum? Do you chew gum a lot?:	5 Gum and yes.
Honestly, have you ever at one point wanting to try smoking?:	No.
Do you use cream on your hands all the time, or do you tend to forget?:	Nope.
In your opinion, who is the hottest actor/actress ever?:	Bradley Cooper.
What do you enjoy to do in your spare time?:	Nothing, really.
Would you rather be the superhero or the supervillain? Why?:	Superhero.
What hurts more? Disappointment or anger?:	Disappointment.
What is your all-time favourite board game? Why do you like it so much?:	Cranium.
Admit it , don't you find Taylor Swift songs real catchy? What's your fav.?:	No, I don't like her music.
Do you tend to write with extraa letterss for no reasooon?:	Yeah.
If you could be doing anything right now, what would you be doing?:	Spending time with people who mean a lot to me.
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March 7, 2010 at 5:11pm

BOYS ;
2 weeks with Rosco (:

Ha he is still insisting he loves me.
He said a ton of sweet stuff.
I don't know what to do,
ha.

I'm pretty happpy.

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