March 17, 2010 at 9:49pm
Mood: worried
Music: Under The Bridge - Red Hot Chili Peppers
Subject: Day 76.

Richie wrecked. Bad. He's pretty banged up. He's got a big gash on his head. He's exhausted, and got dark circles under his eyes, and I'm really worried about him. :/ He came to see me for like two minutes, but he couldn't stay long. But for the two minutes he was here... he looked terrible. I hugged him so softly, but wanted to squeeze him to death. I didn't want to break him though. He can barely move. He's in so much pain. :/ Honestly, he's lucky to have survived the wreck. It kills me to think about it. He keeps taking things lightly and saying "Oh I'm fine." He's not fine. He could've died, and he even knows that. The wreck was BAD. A wheel ended up falling off the car, and the car rolled and flew and flipped. Gah. I don't know what I would've done if I would've lost him. Seriously.

Other than that, today was a good day, aside from that news. The medicine is really helping. My days are slowly getting better. :3 My grades are coming up and I'm actually caring again! I might just be a junior next year and graduate on time, when two months ago, I didn't think I'd ever make it past my freshmore status! :3

March 16, 2010 at 10:54pm
Subject: Day 75.

I'm slowly getting happier. This medicine, I think, might be the answer.

March 16, 2010 at 6:34pm

BOYS ;
Ok, so there was a little ditty I forgot to tell you about Rosco. There was this girl that he had sex with a long time ago, and she got pregnant. He wasn't the only potential Dad but.

our conversation ;

Him- We need to talk.
Me- Ok.
Him- I just got back from the hospital. Meesha's baby is mine....
Me- Oh shit.
Him- Yeah... I don't know what I'm going to do....
Me- Are you gonna break up with me?
Me, way later. - Answer me. Are you gonna dump me?
Him- I don't know what Imma do.
Me- Ok..
Him- Look I wasn't lien when I said I loved you but now I got a kid and its going to be my life now..
Me- I love you too, I was gonna tell you this weekened.

I don't feel like writing out the rest, ha.
Basically, he confused the crap outta me.
He said he would do anything to stay with me, then he said we both know that I'm not ready for this.
Then he just stopped answering, and I haven't talked to him since thenn.

So yeah. I really do love him though, and I don't understand.
We both knew that this baby was on the way, and that there was a good chance it was his, and he didn't act like it was going to be a big deal. I don't even know what to do with myself. I feel helplessss.

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March 15, 2010 at 4:05pm
Music: Entertain The Pain - My Favorite Highway
Subject: Day 74.

Last night with Richie was so amazing. I can't even fjalksjdf;lkajsdf. I love him SO much. I don't know how I got so lucky. He just makes every bad feeling I have, or have ever had, go away for the time he's with me. I've never felt this way about anyone. I feel more for Richie than I feel for... that boy that I thought I'd never get over. I've never met anyone like Richie in my life. And the fact that he doesn't pressure me at all whatsoever just adds to everything. :3

March 14, 2010 at 10:04pm
Music: Hero - Skillet
Subject: Day 73.

Richie came over. <3
I can't even fathom how I got so lucky to find him.